Writers block/Catchup/Rant

This past week has been absolutely crazy. Let me start off by saying  COWBOYS NATION. I'm so stoked about DCC: Making the Team being back on! Also, Switched at Birth! What is Bay doing trying to date someone other than Emmett?! I think everyone knows how that fling is going to end. 

It's been a month since i've seen Hayden, and in a month and three days I will be flying to New York to see him. So close yet so far away. I had dinner with his family last weekend, I missed this sweet baby so much!

   So much has happened in the past week, I don't even know how to put it into words. And the more I think about it, I am my own worst enemy. I stress myself out. I shouldn't worry about half of the things I do. I've narrowed down the colleges I am applying to. Top Choice: Oklahoma State! GO POKES (: and then Texas State, Arizona State, and University of Arkansas. OSU has the southern feel that I love, and seeing so many people post pictures from Rush week and the first few weeks of class makes me that much more excited. But who knows, I honestly have no idea where I will be in a year.

 I feel like I'm working my life away. It seems like every time I have a million things to do I have work to add on top of that. Money is a must, So working is not an option. My boss isn't the nicest person in the world, God forbid she actually make things more enjoyable for us. Our new GM is an anal a-hole. Sorry, but I don't think anyone wants to scrub the inside of a trashcan.

      Oh oh oh! Tuesday, I was an inch a way from rear ending someone and being rear ended. It had the potential of being a 5 car fender bender. (THANK GOD it wasn't)  I called 911 and had to wait for the Ambulance and hot fire fighters to get there. Traffic is ridiculous in the morning AND I was late to class.
 
     If you have a chance, read this article. This story hits home, I didn't know her but she was last seen at the school I attend. I hope there is  Justice for Shania.
   http://m.nbcdfw.com/nbcdfw/pm_108184/contentdetail.htm?contentguid=UO6yF55B

       Here comes the ranting.. Maybe I'm just bitter but I'm so sick of seeing couples complain about a 3 hour long distance relationship. I Understand that it's hard. Any long distance relationship is. Shoot, any relationship is. No one should complain though, they don't have it NEARLY as hard as some. I can't even have a relationship with Hayden because he is so far away. I couldn't drive to see him on the weekends even if I wanted to. He lives right outside of New York city so even flying is hard. I wish more girls were appreciative of what they have. It's so sad knowing things didn't work out with Hayden and I just because of the distance. Like I said, Maybe I'm just bitter. As I'm writing this Miranda Lambert's "over you" came on.. Ironic much?

"But you went away.. how dare you, I miss you. "

Next song was Trace Adkins "You're gonna miss this." Pandora, you know me too well.

"you're going to miss this, you're going to want this back, You're going to wish these days hadn't gone by so fast.. you're going to miss this.."

Anyways! I feel like I'm getting lost in everything that is going on. Over the next week I'm going to set a list of goals. Both short term and long term. I need to make sure I have all of my priorities in line. I know what I want and I won't stop until I get it.

I LOVE this tattoo. Thinking about getting it!

On the bright side of things..My friend Dylan who plays Soccer at University of The Ozarks just reminded me that he has a game in Texas this weekend. I'm still trying to decide if he's worth taking a three hour road trip! ha! I'm sure my best friend and I will end up going! I've been wanting to see him play! I know he's reading this.. Dylan, since you're reppin' number 3 for me, scoring isn't an option!

Also, I figured out this week that the weekend I visit Hayden is his homecoming weekend. I know I've seen him play a million times but I never thought I would get to see him play a college game. After his homecoming, we have plans on going out to dinner in the big NYC. Ahh! I can't wait!